Waaaah! Took me several minutes AGAIN to find where you post a blog on the *new* Multiply.
I know, it's not new anymore to y'all. I'm the one who wasn't paying attention when they upgraded us. And I'll get used to it.
Heidi says I should write when I feel like crying. I dunno WHAT I feel like.
I just think I need some WORDS!
My son was killed by a hit & run yesterday morning. (Was that one day ago? How would I know? Time isn't acting normal anymore.)
Today I know it might have been a homicide. Probably it was a homicide.
Isn't that a word we use when writing fiction?
Who wrote this awful fiction with me as a character in it? With my Scooter, my little boy Scooter, as the victim? (Okay, so he's 30 years old. Doesn't matter. Time warp, you know.)
There. I wrote.
I guess I'll try to sleep now.
My other boys will be here 8 AM.
We buried Scott today. (FICTION! EVERY WORD SCREAMS FICTION!)
At 2 PM will be his funeral. But they don't call it a funeral because we already buried him. Okay. It's the BIG part of the burying ceremony, when EVERYBODY comes. And Pastor tells us death's an enemy that was never supposed to be in our life on earth. And he is SO right. Which is why this don't compute. It must be fiction. We have ETERNITY in our heart. We know with every fabric of our being that we WERE NOT CREATED FOR DEATH!
My son is SLEEPING! When Jesus calls his name, my Scooter will wake up. All smiles.
It's more than words.
Nighty-night baby boy. Sweet dreams. See you in the morning. Mama loves you.
Rani, I am so sorry to hear this, I am without words, my thoughts and prayers for you and the family.
ReplyDeletekeep those "words" coming my friend it Will help
ReplyDeletea candle for him
Nothing I can say or do in this span of time.
ReplyDeleteI will say a prayer tonight for you and yours, Rani.
God be with you all.
My sincerest condolences and sympathies. You, your family and your son will be in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLove and Light
I came through Heidi's post. I have no words to express my condolences. I'm sorry seems not enough. He is in my prayers as are you.
ReplyDeleteHow can we rationalise a family death? We just can't.
ReplyDeleteAny life lost is bad enough, but for a Mother it is agony intensified.
Nothing I can write will ease it so in silence I just think of you.
A Mother, that most noble title befitting a wonderful being.
Strong or weeping your title remains the best.
He was your son and you are proud.
Mother. God Bless.
i also came through Heidi's post. I have no words to ease your pain only reaching out to you offering comfort and prayer. may the angels enfold you and bless you with divine strength. may the powers that be watch over your son and you.
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Can only add the words again my heart goes out to you .
ReplyDeleteWords help SO much. You have no idea. Thank you for your words!!!!!! Every blessed one of you!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the candles.
Thank you for the thoughts.
Thank you for the prayers.
You have NO IDEA what a difference YOU make.
Bless you, name by name, every single one.
hi you always be my friend and in my heart i'm so sorry for your loss there arnt enough words to express this your in my thoughts and prayers dear one
ReplyDeletedon't know what to say, words seem so useless but words is all we've got here. I feel for you, I felt for you in every word you wrote here.
ReplyDeleterani, I had questions; you already answered them.
ReplyDeleteAs a dad, I am colder and harder and would suffer, but what I have seen of mother who loves, I can not fathom.
May God walk with you and yours throughut this.
Coming from Heidi's post and so very sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThank you again, my friends. I will try to write more later. I need to get some rest tonight, as it is back to work tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteRani - I've been out of town but I have kept you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. God bless you and keep you.
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